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i love her.

cute.

Jungle drum by Emiliana Torrini

confirm tiba2 aku rasa hormon aku tak seimbang, aku menjadik vain.
tengok gambar sendiri, nampak gigi yang senget, bontot yang lebar dan sebagainya.
kalau tak kerana aku tau aku memang tak buat sebarang activity yang boleh membuatkan aku mengandung, aku dah ingat aku mengandung dah.

lepas tu, semalam, setelah beberapa minggu aku menyedapkan hati sendiri dengan makan, aku timbang berat, berat aku dah naik.
ok, aku bukan lah perempuan kurus yang saiko bila berat naik, tapi sebenarnye naik sekilo je.

hehe.
bile aku cakap naik, mmg confirm naik betul.

dan aku dah panik.

so bile aku panik, aku kene ada action plan.

plan aku sekarang :
1) bangun pagi joggin before pegi keje (pagi tadi berjaye OK)
2) petang sebelum balik dari office, pi swimming. (mule kan hari ini, jangan postpone esok)
3) jangan makan lagi tidbits yang penuh dalam opis nih. hari2 aku makan pringles ok for the last 2 weeks. demmit btol. (hari nih aku bawak grapes satu tupperware, in case kalau aku teringin nak mengunyah)
4) stop having dinner
5) makan lebih buah2 han. bfast yang sihat. bukan karipap dan chicken ball lagi.
6) jangan makan di KL seperti tiada hari esok. buang perasaan “rugi kalau tak makan”.

serious aku menggelupor panik dengan berat badan aku dan perot aku yang buncit. and jangan tegur gigi aku yang senget. kang tibe2 aku menangis.
tak lawak ok. balik sabtu nih aku nak pegi jumpe dentist, buat scaling, dengan buat appointment nak cabut wisdom tooth aku yang tak wisdom yang nak menyebabkan aku kena surgery. sekarang aku rasa aku boleh cuti seminggu for the surgery sebab economic downturn, tader new orders coming in.
so aku nak tanye juge pasal nak pakai braces.

heh. lagi dua tiga minggu mebe aku akan baca balik entry nih dah tak paham ape yang aku meroyan sorang2.
but for now, just let me be insecured for once. (jarang moment2 aku nak rasa aku benci diri sendiri nih). punye lah aku struggle nak menyukai diri sendiri, dua tiga hari minggu lepas aku pegi keje mekap, pakai earing, bangle dan segala. haha.
hopefully this will not last.
it’s not fun.

It has been 2 months and 13 days..a few hours and minutes.

Friends been asking “Hanif dah pandai buat ape?”. I paused. Really, I don’t know what to tell.

Hanif smiles randomly.
Hanif likes his morning bath. Weekdays at 7am, weekends at 10am. He hiccups after that. Hik Hik he goes.
He sleeps on his tummy, then later after midnite feed, he sleeps next to me on his side. Kalau lapa lagi nnt die tolak2 Ibu die for another round of feed.
Hanif suka mendongak. Tengok lampu, tengok udara, tengok plaster ceiling.

That’s all. Later when he memorize the Periodic Table, I’ll give you guys an update.

still tengah edit2 gambar.

i think i’ll upload at fotopages later. hari nih kena stayback kat opis sampai 8pm, ada conference call.
so activity terbaek mengisi masa lapang, upload gambaq!

I had a new bad BAD BADD habit - Online Shopping.

Tsk.

Having a little baby with husband away from home to go shopping with, doesn’t mean you can’t splurge and empty up your wallet eyh?

Double Tsk.

I’ve just purchased baby stuffs yesterday (one for me and another one is a present since it’s on SALE so why wait?? - alasan), and now my fingers are itchy to click-click to buy kain for baju kurung. Since I’ve found a truly cheap and good tailor so why not?? - alasan again.

I guess I’m banning myself from Internet after work hours.

1. Are we friends?
2. When and how did we meet?
3. Give me a nickname and explain why u picked it.
4. Describe me in one word.
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What reminds you of me?
8. If you could give me anything what would it be?
9. Do you think you know everything about me?
10. When’s the last time you saw me?
11. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn’t?
12. if i’m gone forever, will you miss me? why?

in 2 days, i would be off to another island, where there would not be any high rise building, only tall coconut trees, white sandy beach, crystal clear water. i’m looking forward to swimming and just lazying by the beach. my work can just go effing offf. 3 days and i’ll be coming back with a tanned. (ah ah ah, as if aku putih melepak tak originally tanned)

anyway, trip kali nih kiteorg multi racial. macam2 ada. (padahal 3 orang ja pi)

items to bring.(jangan lupe ok!)
1) laptop haha, mesti intan benci kalau aku bawak benda nih
2) goggle snorkeling(kena carik nih, tatau ada kat mana)
3) swimming attire
4) shorts, shorts and short
5) t-shirt
6) sun block.. macam tader. intan ade kot? koala silap2 dia bawak suntanned oil. malas la aku nak beli. aku baru buang sebotol sunblock sebab tak abih pakai
7) goggle swimming
8) buku cerita
9) play card. yeay! lama tak main
10) ipod. (charge please)
11) owh hampir terlupa, kamera
12) sunglass (wajib)

yeay yeay. i’m off to a holiday soon.

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okey, updates.
11.58pm (20th March) : the night before i’m leaving
-tak pack lagi. sampai rumah from office pukul 10.45pm. sambung buat kerja another 30minutes. sekarang tgh terlentang browse2 facebook. and sangatlah malas nak mengemas.

copy this from the author of this blog, his reply to one of the comments. (bangkai.wordpress.com).

Your prince is out there, Serene. Its just that right now he hasn’t yet earned the right to meet up with you.

haha. a very interesting way to tell the girl to keep the hope alive while being single.
yeah, you are already riding a Ducati while your prince is still learning how to ride a horse in order to sweep you off your feet and bring you to the far far away kingdom and live happily ever after.

sweet.

anyone miss me?

aku rasa aku ada masalah, self image.

kalau aku buku cerita, aku ada lah buku cerita yang cover nya lain, bila baca cerita lain.

lepas tu, aku ada buat quiz mengisi masa lapang, what kind of blogger am i.
result dia, dia kata, my life is an open book. i wrote everything about my life in my blog. aku rasa memang betoi, blog nih mmg sessi mengikut perkembangan hidup aku. ecewah. macam artis pulak.

tapi, aku rasa, orang yang tak kenai aku, or dah lama tak bercakap dengan aku, hanya baca blog, orang2 tersebut ada pandangan yang salah pasal hidup aku sekarang.
aku buat conclusion, aku tak pandai menulis mula2.
tapi hari nih, aku rasa, aku memang salah memancarkan image aku, tak kisah lah physically, or secara bertulis.

so, aku nak self review image sendiri dua tiga minggu. till then. tata